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"De"-Briefing

How do you pack 9 months worth of stuff into 2 suitcases and a carry on?
More on the chore later...
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Mish

posted by Mish @ 14:13 0 comments

Still Seeking

Hey there all...

So after going to the visa office today and finding out I pretty much have no chance of obtaining the visa for religious purposes, which I'm supposed to have, it looks like I'll be going visa-less....which I hope will be okay, because quite frankly I don't want to be "curteously" asked to leave the country like my dear brother was when he attempted to go to England. I don't think that will happen. But that's the least of my worries right now.

I am however still trying to find donations, but it seems like most people have either decided against helping me out financially, or else they're just sitting on it till the last minute. Which is fine, but I'd like to have a little bit of confidence that I'll be able to make it over there and back again without too much uncertainty.

Maybe this is just another test. As usual, I think I'm failing miserably. But, if I don't go I can accept that. It just means God's got some kind of other adventure in store for me. Oh to live! That would be the greatest adventure! One moment at a time I suppose. Damn, it's hard though.

And then I start feeling guilty, because quite frankly, I've got it pretty nice. I mean, as far as it stands right now, I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and food in my tummy (yummy). All I have to do is think about the poor people in New Orleans that don't have that. Or those suffering in Africa and Iraq....and then that snaps me back into reality.

Sometimes I just feel like I'm wasting my time....that I should be doing more for people who don't have. It's the age-old rift between the have and have nots that gets to me. And I need to do something more about it.

Going someplace to try and "figure my life out" or expecting that once I'm there I will automatically learn how to be charitable is an escape route. It has to start right here, right now. In the moment. For all of us.

May God have mercy on us all.

Till later!

posted by Mish @ 13:32 2 comments